Going solo after a while.

Today I watched a movie on cinema. It's been a while since I got in there by myself. I don't mind actually but since lately I got there by dragging Dewangga along and it became an habit, going alone was kind of... lonely? Somehow?

Habit is scary in many ways.

But really! Having a large portion of sweet popcorn by myself wasn't a good idea. And I spend a while to find my ride at the parking lot bcs I accidentally forgot where to park. And when I want to stop by for window shopping, I didn't felt comfortable if I went alone.

Ughh. I thought I should find another mate for a movie since Dewangga would left in few weeks in the future.

Gotta find one soon!

The most expensive watch I've ever bought.

So lately I didn't now what's going on in my head. I just went with the flow to bought a watch. An expensive one. Honestly, it was the most expensive one that I've ever bought with my own money. $300 was totally not a small amount of money for me, at least for now.

And the watch is....

Despair.

It kind of sad when I realized that I never be part of your life.

Bcs sometime what we need is courage, not advice.

Relax. You are great, as always. You'd get it done greatly.

And you're not alone. There'll always be some people that walk beside you. So don't be afraid. You're not come this far for only come this far.

I couldn't say much but I hope this words gave you a courage to go through it all. 

Maybe I am not.

I'm just an ordinary girl.
My hair doesn't always stay in place and I'm pretty clumsy. I'm not particularly interesing or talented.

I never really gave it a thought at the start. It was just an ordinary introduction, and somehow we got same things in common. It was fun being with you but I didn't feel lonely or anything when you were gone. We weren't always get in touch but it was kind of fun when you left a comment or something on my post. And it just stopped right there. We were never crossed the line.