Maybe I am not.

I'm just an ordinary girl.
My hair doesn't always stay in place and I'm pretty clumsy. I'm not particularly interesing or talented.

I never really gave it a thought at the start. It was just an ordinary introduction, and somehow we got same things in common. It was fun being with you but I didn't feel lonely or anything when you were gone. We weren't always get in touch but it was kind of fun when you left a comment or something on my post. And it just stopped right there. We were never crossed the line.



But somehow, now it's changed. At least for me.

I started seeing you in some kind if different way. I started waiting for your messages, your comments, your notifications, I started to looking forward for the time I got to your place, I started to missing the time we spend together and the movies that we watched, even the little things I could think that reminded me of you. This is bad, but, yes,  I started to grow on you.  Like, "I'm finally laying somewhere where I'm happy that I'm here, and my troubles said goodbye and the heartache disappeared."

All of the things that you did make me felt special, somehow. And I felt kind of sad to think that maybe you also treated all of you girl-friends the same. And then I'd thought, I was getting ahead of my self.

Ohmygod, this circle is killing me.
And maybe it was just me that felt this feeling.
Maybe there was already someone inside your heart.
Maybe I'm wasting my time.
Again.