hi, baby.

hi, baby.

I'm still copping with this feeling of losing you. 

everything that I did, somehow remind me of you. 

last wednesday, I got discharged from hospital. just when I went to the room, I just couldn't stop my tears. every little thing in this room, reminds me of you. the pregnancy pillow, the clothes that I was wearing, the vitamins that I consume, even everytime I ate, I always remember that I used to eat for you too. 

as the day went by, I stared to feel better. but some other time, when I just suddenly remember of you, I will run to your dad, hugging him, as I can't stop my tears flowing. he will just hug me back without saying anything until I calmed down. it surprised me that I was so attached to you more than I realized, baby. 

everyday I pray that you will be happier there. mom and dad loves still, and always, baby. ♡

see you again, baby.

 9/10/2023

dear my lovely baby boy,

just so you know, ibuk and ayah love you so so soooo much. we were so in love with your presense in our live as we couldn't wait to see you come in our arms. 

but, it turned out that Allah loves you more than us...

it saddened ibuk and ayah to have to send you so soon, but we always know that His plan is what's best for you and for us. thank you for spending this last magical four months with us. we will see you again in jannah, my little angel. 

we love you so much, and always, my dear muhammad daffa hm ♡